Yesterday was moms 1st Heavenly Birthday. We celebrated mom with morning mass, a visit to her resting place where we were greeted with the most beautiful cardinal (hi 👋, mama!), and crab legs for dinner with dad and “his girls.” To everyone who sent prayers and love to our family.. to those who have supported from near and afar.. THANK YOU. Please know how grateful that we are.
I’m writing this from my bathroom the morning I’m driving back to California. Crying, of course. The bathroom floor has always been my crying spot, since I was a young girl. This year has had some amazing highs, and some unfathomable lows. July was by far the hardest month of my life, and the hardest month for our family. Death .. it’s something we will all face someday. And it’s something I’ve been thinking about a lot lately. I try to live without regrets, and instead, hold myself responsible for my present, future, and my own happiness. Moms passing has held me in reflection of how I choose to move forward from here on out. In what capacity will I balance my personal, family, friends, and work, and from where? What’s truly important in life? I love my family and Midwest roots. Moving to California was not something I ever dreamed about, or truly, wanted to do. Living there opened my eyes to so many things, including my love and need for nature. That said, there’s always space and time for new chapters. And something tells me I’m on the verge of a new one.
Parenting has been the biggest gift of my life. And as a parent, when we watch our children grow into young men and women, we are also given space to grow into our own next chapter. So here we are.. I have a few years to sit with where I’d love to go. But wherever it is, whenever it happens, and with whomever, I’m trusting mom to be my Angel guide from above.
Home is where the heart is.. and my family will always be my home.
Happy 84th Birthday, Mama. My best friend and my Leo Sister. I love you so damn much, and I miss you to the moon and back.
How do you foresee your next chapter in life? ⬇️ My hope for you is happiness, too.
Keep being beautiful ..
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